Jan 23 2008
On the Kindness of God
The dark night has at last ended
I have now seen You.
Inside the depth of my heart.
I do not know what magic abides
Inside me.
Around me is the desert,
Yet I am not parched with thirst.
-Sri Chimnoy
Today I received more instruction on detachment and following Divine will. I had planned to go on a day trip with family and friends. It was a one time deal, and something that had been planned for several months. I couldn’t because of the cold. I felt really devastated about it. I was overwhelmed with sadness.
My experience of the Divine is one of infinite kindness & I have been amply prepared to deal with grief. So I cried and cried. I embraced my sadness because I will not allow grief to stop up my well. I cried it out, I emptied myself and was still. In stillness I found the Divine again.
You might ask how this is kind? There is nothing my heart desires so strongly as closeness and service to the One. I know that the Divine is giving me my instruction in the kindest possible way that I am able to hear. In my early work, none of my figures had ears. I could not hear and my lessons were severe only because I wasn’t listening. Hence 11 shocks to my heart! Now all the figures in my art have ears. I do listen and my lessons have become easier. I am learning to trust, today was a lesson in detaching from my own will and trusting the Divine.
Early work without ears
Recent work with ears
Say not in grief that she is no more
but say in thankfulness that she was
A death is not the extinguishing of a light,
but the putting out of the lamp
because the dawn has come.
-Tagore
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Today I am grateful for:
1) My friend Miriam
2) A good dinner
3) My dogs
I am sorry about your trip, but you are so wise and present, it’s a beautiful thing.
I hope you feel better soon.
Thank you for this wisdom, Painter. I am hoping to move into a space in which I can permit myself to weep at a disappointment and let the emotion pass through opposed to stamping down such emotions as silly or a waste of time. What a brilliant way to put it, to know that you must allow such tears to flow so that grief does not stop up your well.
Wishing you sunny skies…
I am sorry about your trip and sorry that your heart was broken. I learn so much when I read your blog, I learn about you, I learn about art, I learn about god and I learn about myself. I hope some day soon you can take your lovely day trip and are greatly rewarded for your patience and the ability to look detachment in the eye and win.
i doubt a wise person would cry because of a missed trip. (????)
may be the event was not the cause but the trigger for your tears.
Gartenfische, Epiphany Girl, DebraAnn, thanks you comments mean a lot to me.
Ether- I have NEVER claimed to be a wise person!